I put up with a lot chasing my dreams.
At times, it gets frightening.
I get reminded quite often that I am a woman.
That I am of color.
That the law doesn’t necessarily sway in my favor.
Today, I wanted to give up.
I called Arbs, after a certain situation.
Out of everyone he knows the crazy obstacles I’ve endured.
I wanted to give up today, go back home and hide.
He had to remind me of how far I’ve gotten.
And slowly but surely I had to look at the bigger picture.
It’s a lot of that.
If I was to focus on the details of things, I’d be running home.
But I got this.
It stops becoming scary when I realize how much strength I’ve had to have to push through this.
Sometimes that’s all I have; strength.